Inte än

Vem lämnade vem? 
Jag är inte över dig än.
 
Det känns nu på morgonen, när ljuset inte vaknat än. Jag vänder ut och in på sommaren, blir aldrig riktigt sams med den. Vi skulle nog ha hamnat här ändå, för lusten är svår att ändra på. Jag väntar ut dig i tystnaden, för att det är lättast så.
 
  Du är för stolt, eller hur? Och jag är för feg för att dra mig ur, så vi tittar bort åt varsitt håll och tänker samma sak - det känns ännu sämre nu. Var och en går hem till sig och fast jag inte saknar dig, känns det som om världen skulle rasa om du faktiskt glömde mig. 
 
Jag grät och vi kysstes, fast jag borde ha bett dig att gå. Jag ska aldrig mer säga sanningen till någon som saknar förmåga att förstå. Det är ljust snart, jag vet, men än så känns det kallt. Jag önskar att jag var en sån' som inte tänkte alls. 
 
Det är vår och varmt och fullt med folk på stan. Jag har köpt nya solglasögon och gömt mig i dem hela dan'. Är du kvar där du var? För jag har slutat gå förbi. Det är nog bäst för båda om jag försöker låta bli.

Vem lämnade vem?
Jag är inte över dig än.


The power of kindness

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"The Fox" by Khalil Gibran

A fox looked at his shadow at sunrise and said: “I will have a camel for lunch today.” and all morning he went about looking for camels, but at noon he saw his shadow again — and he said:

“A mouse will do.” 

Words of comfort

 
Right now I'm in a different place,
and though we seem apart, 
I'm closer than I ever was,
I'm there, inside your heart.

I'm with you when you greet each day,
and while the sun shines bright, 
I'm there to share the sunsets too, 
I'm with you every night. 

I'm with you when the times are good, 
to share a laugh or two, 
and if a tear should start to fall, 
I'll still be there for you. 

And when that day arrives, 
that we no longer are apart, 
I'll smile and hold you close to me, 

- forever in my heart. 

White power

Det där att människor svälter i en värld av överflöd. Det där att 10% av jordens befolkning äger 90% av jordens tillgångar. 

 


Just det där.

"The sleep-walkers" by K. Gibran

In the town where I was born lived a woman and her daughter, who walked in their sleep.

 

One night, while silence enfolded the world, the woman and her daughter, walking, yet asleep, met in their mist-veiled garden.

 

And the mother spoke, and she said: “At last, at last, my enemy! You by whom my youth was destroyed—who have built up your life upon the ruins of mine! Would I could kill you!”

 

And the daughter spoke, and she said: “O hateful woman, selfish and old! Who stand between my freer self and me! Who would have my life an echo of your own faded life! Would you were dead!”

 

At that moment a cock crew, and both women awoke. The mother said gently, “Is that you, darling?” And the daughter answered gently, “Yes, dear.”


Det där med tjänstelegitimation...

 
 
"Välj mellan dessa fyra bilder"
- som för övrigt är identiska. Med ett påtvingat leende och armarna i kors.  

John Lennon

      
 
I believe in God, but not as one thing, not as an old man in the sky. I believe that what people call God is something in all of us. I believe that what Jesus and Mohammed and Buddha and all the rest said was right.
 
It's just that the translations have gone wrong.

Aleena Yasin

I knew I was a grain of sand in the vast desert that never ended and he was a sparkling star in the sky. I was a fish who couldn’t breathe in air and had to stay in dark waters forever while he was a majestic bird who soared so high that he barely touched the ground.
 

I did not deserve him.
 
I could only watch him from down here and wish, wish that he could come here someday. That he could know that I existed, but for that - he had to fall.
 
He had to drop to the ground, but I could not let that happen. And then I thought, birds are meant to fly and stars are meant to shine and if someone takes it away from them, they can't be the same anymore. So, I just prayed that his wings never fail him, that the star never explodes.
 

And I was at peace.

Part of my history, not my destiny.

 
 
 

"Faces" by Khalil Gibran

I've seen a face with a thousand countenances
- and a face that was but a single countenance as if held in a mould.

 

I've seen a face whose sheen I could look through to the ugliness beneath
- and a face whose sheen I had to lift to see how beautiful it was.

 

I've seen an old face much lined with nothing
- and a smooth face in which all things were graven.

 

I know faces, because I look through the fabric my own eye weaves
- and behold the reality beneath.

 

What you won't do for love


Haruki Murakami

One beautiful April morning, on anarrow side street in Tokyo's fashionable Harujuku neighborhood, I walked past the 100% perfect girl. Tell you the truth, she's not thatgood-looking. She doesn't stand out in any way. Her clothes are nothing special. The back of her hair is still bent out of shape from sleep. She isn't young, either - must be near thirty, not even close to a "girl," properly speaking. But still, I know from fifty yards away: She's the 100% perfect girl for me.

 

The moment I see her, there's a rumbling in my chest, and my mouth is as dry as a desert. Maybe you have your own particular favorite type of girl - one with slim ankles, say, or big eyes, or graceful fingers, or you're drawn for no good reason to girls who take their time with every meal. I have my own preferences, of course.

 

Sometimes in a restaurant I'll catchmyself staring at the girl at the next table to mine because I like the shape of her nose. But no one can insist that his 100% perfect girl correspond to some preconceived type. Much as I like noses, I can't recall the shape of hers - or even if she had one. All I can remember for sure is that she was no great beauty. It's weird.

 


 

"Yesterday on the street I passed the 100% girl," I tell someone.

 

"Yeah?" he says. "Good-looking?"

 

"Not really."

 

"Your favorite type, then?"

 

"I don't know. I can't seem to remember anything about her - the shape of her eyes or the size of her breasts."

 

"Strange."

 

"Yeah. Strange."

 

"So anyhow," he says, already bored, "what did you do? Talk to her? Follow her?"

 

"Nah. Just passed her on the street."
 


 

 She's walking east to west, and I west to east. It's a really nice April morning. Wish I could talk to her. Half an hour would be plenty: just ask her about herself, tell her about myself, and - what I'd really like to do - explain to her the complexities of fate that have led to our passing each other on a side street in Harajuku on a beautiful April morning in 1981. This was something sure to be crammed full of warm secrets, like an antique clock build when peace filled the world.

 

After talking, we'd have lunch somewhere, maybe see a Woody Allen movie, stop by a hotel bar for cocktails. With any kind of luck, we might end up in bed. Potentiality knocks on the door of my heart. Now the distance between us has narrowed to fifteen yards. How can I approach her? What should I say?

 


 

"Good morning, miss. Do you think you could spare half an hour for a little conversation?"

 

Ridiculous. I'd sound like an insurance salesman.

 

"Pardon me, but would you happen to know if there is an all-night cleaners in the neighborhood?"

 

No, this is just as ridiculous. I'm not carrying any laundry, for one thing. Who's going to buy a line like that?Maybe the simple truth would do.

 

"Good morning. You are the 100% perfect girl for me."

 


 

No, she wouldn't believe it. Or even if she did, she might not want to talk to me. Sorry, she could say, I might be the 100% perfect girl for you, but you're not the 100% boy for me. It could happen. And if I found myself in that situation, I'd probably go to pieces. I'd never recover from the shock. I'm thirty-two, and that's what growing older is all about.

 

We pass in front of a flower shop. A small, warm air mass touches my skin. The asphalt is damp, and I catch the scent of roses. I can't bring myself to speak to her. She wears a white sweater, and in her right hand she holds a crisp white envelope lacking only a stamp. So: She's written somebody a letter, maybe spent the whole night writing, to judge from the sleepy look in her eyes. The envelope could contain every secret she's ever had. I take a few more strides and turn:

 

She's lost in the crowd.

 

Now, of course, I know exactly what I should have said to her. It would have been a long speech, though, far too long for me to have delivered it properly. The ideas I come up with are never very practical. Oh, well. It would have started "Once upon a time" and ended "A sad story, don't you think?"

 

Once upon a time, there lived a boy and a girl. The boy was eighteen and the girl sixteen. He was not unusually handsome, and she was not especially beautiful. They were just an ordinary lonely boy and an ordinary lonely girl, like all the others. But they believed with their whole hearts that somewhere in the world there lived the 100% perfect boy and the 100% perfect girl for them. Yes, they believed in a miracle. And that miracle actually happened.

 


 

 

One day the two came upon each other on the corner of a street.

 

"This is amazing," he said. "I've been looking for you all my life. You may not believe this, but you're the 100% perfect girl for me."

 

"And you," she said to him, "are the 100% perfect boy for me, exactly as I'd pictured you in every detail. It's like a dream."

 


 

They sat on a park bench, held hands, and told each other their stories hour after hour. They were not lonely anymore. They had found and been found by their 100% perfect other. What a wonderful thing it is to find and be found by your 100% perfect other. It's a miracle, a cosmic miracle. As they sat and talked, however, a tiny, tiny sliver of doubt took root in their hearts: Was it really all right for one's dreams to come true so easily? And so, when there came a momentary lull in their conversation, the boy said to the girl:

 



"Let's test ourselves - just once. If we really are each other's 100% perfect lovers, then sometime, somewhere, we will meet again without fail. And when that happens, and we know that we are the 100% perfect ones, we'll marry then and there. What do you think?"

 

"Yes," she said, "that is exactly what we should do."

 



And so they parted, she to the
east, and he to the west. The test they had agreed upon, however, was utterly unnecessary. They should never have undertaken it, because they really and truly were each other's 100% perfect lovers, and it was a miracle that they had ever met. But it was impossible for them to know this, young as they were. The cold, indifferent waves of fate proceeded to toss them unmercifully.

 

One winter, both the boy and thegirl came down with the season's terrible inluenza, and after drifting for weeks between life and death they lost all memory of their earlier years. When they awoke, their heads were as empty as the young D. H. Lawrence's piggy bank.

 

They were two bright, determined young people, however, and through their unremitting efforts they were able to acquire once again the knowledge and feeling that qualified them to return as full-fledged members of society. Heaven be praised, they became truly upstanding citizens who knew how to transfer from one subway line to another, who were fully capable of sending a special-delivery letter at the post office. Indeed, they even experienced love again, sometimes as much as 75% or even 85% love. Time passed with shocking swiftness, and soon the boy was thirty-two, the girl thirty.

 

One beautiful April morning, in search of a cup of coffee to start the day, the boy was walking from west to east, while the girl, intending to send a special-delivery letter, was walking from east to west, but along the same narrow street in the Harajuku neighborhood of Tokyo. They passed each other in the very center of the street. The faintest gleam of their lost memories glimmered for the briefest moment in their hearts. Each felt a rumbling in their chest. And they knew:

 


 

She is the 100% perfect girl for me.

 

He is the 100% perfect boy for me.


 

But the glow of their memories was far too weak, and their thoughts no longer had the clarity of fourteen years earlier. Without a word, they passed each other, disappearing into the crowd. Forever.

 

A sad story, don't you think?


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